The
greatest of human contentment is found not in the world around us but within
ourselves - in a deep self-peace that is reflected within the beauty of truly
knowing that we are enough just as we are. Knowing that we truly belong.
Knowing that it is the very uniqueness of our journey that gives meaning to
every breath we are given.
Realizing
such contentment and self-peace is a continuous journey. And at times, one that
can be painful to endure and filled with adversity. We are in constant search
of finding where it is we belong – questioning the beauty within every breath
we are gifted. We unknowingly cling to distraction and immerse ourselves in the
world’s chaos - a means in which allows us to live blindly within our own lives
and avoid looking inwardly at the state of our own selves. Allowing us to
numbly exist all while sacrificing our beautiful and authentically unique
spirits. We cling to the stability of chaos and distraction - never able to
find the place of quieted true contentment within ourselves, scared and unable
to see the beauty in our own unique journeys.
A Quiet Stillness
As I sit
beneath the expansive summer sky my mind wanders as it often does. There’s a sting
of sadness that often surfaces when I’m left alone in such a quiet state of
mind. It’s the silent side of CF. It is a plague unto my mind and heart when
all is still. It appears when I am not consumed by the world’s chaos and
engulfed in my own subconsciously created distractions – every minute given to
something other than myself as a way to deny my own reality and cope with an
ever–growing discontentment created by CF.
There’s a
quiet stillness about this summer in comparison to other summers. Or, maybe I
am just seeing my own reflection a bit differently in this season of life–
acutely aware of time, purpose, and contentment. In such quietness lies an
intense restlessness. A restlessness that is knowingly rooted in the silent
side of CF and the uncertainty it perpetually stirs within the deepest parts of
my being. It’s a restlessness born of stillness, the passing of time, inevitable
change, and the uncontrollable circumstances of my unique journey with CF. But
most of all, it’s a restlessness that disrupts my inner peace- making me
question where it is I belong and the beauty of this unique journey I’ve been
gifted.
Beautifully Enough
As times passes
I realize more and more how different all of our journeys are. And seemingly I
realize just how lonely this road less traveled can be. There’s something special
in the sharing of what is familiar between people- an unspoken bond and deepness.
It gives a reassuring sense of belonging and understanding. The pang of sadness
comes not in living this unique journey I’ve been given with CF and all that comes with it, but it comes in
knowing I will never fully share life in the same way with dear friends and family. The sadness comes when I realize that my journey will always seem so very different. So, I do my best to quiet this
restlessness. Not by immersing myself amidst distracting chaos like I desperately try to do so often, but by sharing
my honest self and most of all, listening. Hoping to vibrantly live and
experience life not only through my own unique journey but through the beautifully
different journeys of all those who fill my life.
I look to the summer sky and breathe in the warm air of my
favorite season, a wash of reassuring contentment fills my quieted soul.
Life fills my soul.
In a brief renewing moment I am reminded that it is in our own uniqueness that we truly belong. That self-peace is found within the most honest parts of who we are – rooted in gratitude for the life we have each been given. Rooted in knowing we are beautifully enough just as we are. Rooted in the truth that it is through sharing each of our different journeys we truly live and experience the beauty in every breath. Love to you all.
Life fills my soul.
In a brief renewing moment I am reminded that it is in our own uniqueness that we truly belong. That self-peace is found within the most honest parts of who we are – rooted in gratitude for the life we have each been given. Rooted in knowing we are beautifully enough just as we are. Rooted in the truth that it is through sharing each of our different journeys we truly live and experience the beauty in every breath. Love to you all.
Take a deep breath and look to
today's summer sky. Fill your soul with the peace of knowing you are
truly enough and this unique journey you've been gifted is breathtakingly
beautiful.
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